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You Came To My Rescue

Knowing what it is like to feel unwanted has created in me a desire to make sure others know they are wanted-Oprah

When I heard Oprah say this statement while giving her story of how she overcame her past and has grown into who she is, rang a bell inside my heart.  I have a deep care for those who have been “tossed away” by society, families and life in general. This care has really taken over in my life regarding pets. Oh my, I believe I could take in every unwanted animal and help rescue every abused animal out there. Anyone or thing being mistreated or tossed to the side breaks my heart and I have deep compassion.

As a child my father passed away at the age of 5 years old.  My mother ran off around the age of 4 years old.  You can tell by these 2 sentences what really affected me, the loss of my father first, then abandonment of my mother. This created a deep wound inside my heart, along with insecurities and fear. You don’t really know how deep a traumatic event effects a child until they develop as they age. I grew into someone who wanted to please and be everything to everyone at the cost of myself. I developed a fear of being left, unloved and would break off relationships (create rejection) before I would let others reject me. How unhealthy is it to have that in your heart? VERY!

I grew up where you didn’t talk about this kind of stuff, it just was what it was. I never understood why my dad died, I actually for a while thought he died on purpose, because something was wrong with me. I never knew why my mother ran off, or how to navigate through life having such a deep wound in my heart as a child. I always felt there was something wrong with me. I never really felt it was others, more from a place where I wasn’t good enough for others. I never believed I could make it, that I could make a difference or amount to anything. I felt unwanted, not loved and like I was just simply in the way. This kind of loss and rejection as a child, will set you on a course to a life of destruction if God has not been made the director of your life.  Oh, did I make so many bad decisions. I am so thankful that God has redeemed me and used everything for His Glory and to help others!

Once I cried out to the Lord and He changed my  life, I began to see how valuable I am and the value in others.  God says, we are wonderfully made, we are made in His image and He has a future we have hoped for. The Lord says, that he came for those who need a savior (hello that us you and me), those who have been given up on, who’s lives are a mess. He is our deliverer. He came to heal the broken hearted. He is the Father to the fatherless. We are adopted into Christ. I can go on and on. Isn’t that good news? The Lord wants to make sure they know they are wanted and He created them to have a full and great life. Oprah didn’t come up with that, Jesus did.

What the devil meant for bad God turned to good in my life. I have gone from knowing I wasn’t wanted by my mother and feeling abandoned by both parents; to knowing I have a Father who has set me free from my past. I have been adopted into the family of the Lord, I have a HUGE family now that fellowships around the love of God. I have gone from being rejected to accepted. From feeling unloved to loved. From letting my past decide my future, to letting what Jesus did determine my future.

Growing up with this in my heart has given me a compassion and heart for the really wounded. To help those who do not know they are even seen. To use what had my heart broken, into helping others walk through healing in their hearts through the power of God’s word. Knowing what it is like to feel unwanted has created in me a desire to make sure others know they are wanted and loved. God wants us to know our past doesn’t determine our future, but our future can help others determine theirs. If you have a wounded heart make the decision today to call out to God, and ask Him to fill you with His love. If you have already walked through the healing power of Jesus, reach out to someone who is broken and share of His power in your life. Today could be THE day for you!




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God My ATM

As I chatted with my brother today about the Lord and our relationship with Him, we discussed how when in a crunch, need or desperation, many people cry out to the Lord. However, when things turn around they turn away. Yoda would say it this way “This does not a relationship make.”

This kind of thinking reminds me of an ATM. We put our money in the bank and make withdrawals when we have a need. My girls always say, “mom if you are out of money just go to the ATM.” Of course we all know if you don’t have the extra funds you can’t make the withdrawal. Often times we may pick up another job, sell things on the side and so on to put more finances in the bank. However, at the end of the day if your funds have run out you can’t withdrawal from the ATM.

So many look at God this way. We see so many who need healed, finances or a miracle and they call everyone they know to pray and they call out to God. Think about this, if you have to have these series of circumstances to call out to God, perhaps you have to stay in that state because He wants relationship with you. Interesting, huh? God isn’t there to only meet your immediate need, that isn’t relationship. How would a marriage or friendship work if that were how you looked at it? There would be zero sustainability or growth in the relationship. The ATM view of God isn’t His desire towards us as all. He desires relationship, not to make withdrawals from Him when we have a need.

Of course Jesus will meet all our needs but just as Jesus paid a price so do we. We are to surrender our lives to Him and let Him transform us. This will require us to seek Him, serve Him, surrender to His will and give Him our hearts 100%. Wouldn’t you like a full relationship with a friend or spouse? God desires that kind of relationship from us, not just pop in and make a withdrawal, when we are in a pickle.

Today, I just want to encourage you to spend some time to thank Him for all He has done in your life and just think on His goodness. Pick up your Bible and read some of His promises or even better the sacrifice Jesus made for each of us. Open your heart and make a daily withdrawal from Heaven and a deposit in your Spirit.

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The Lost Earring

I lost one of my favorite earrings today and went on a relentless search. I knew the earring was somewhere close but I could not see it nor find it anywhere. I felt a bit sad over having lost something that had been with me for some time and I wear several times a week. After all, it is the perfect simple earring to wear with anything. You know, one of the most important, earth shattering things in life; not so much.
While in a hurry I made the decision to look for it at a later time and get ready for church. I just knew this earring was gone and I would not find it. As I went about my business and continued to get ready, I looked down and saw something shiny in the floor. I couldn’t believe it, there lay my earring.  I was so excited after finding my earring, and made sure to place it where I would not lose it again. You know, where it should have been in the first place, in the earring holder.
Throughout the day I thought about this and how Jesus is with His sheep. The Bible says that He will leave the 99 to go and find the 1. That means like my earring, He will pursue finding the one lost because that one is so valuable to Him. Jesus is relentless in His pursuit of us, and will be in search of the 1 until the 1 is united with the 99.
Like my deciding to go about my business and not give any more thought to the earring, because it wasn’t important at the moment. We seem to allow our relationship with Jesus to end up in the same state. We begin to go on with our lives and let THE most valuable thing (Jesus) in our life take a step to the side until we are in need. I really didn’t need the earrings at the moment, but when in a crunch or in my hurry mode, they are my go to earring. What was lost I really needed to be found.
Jesus is always patient and continues to look for the one that is lost. Even if the sheep that is lost, has left to go off on their own, Jesus will be relentless in His pursuit to place you where you first belonged, in a safe place where you will never be lost again.
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